20 Months and 3 Days

20 months and 3 days. That's how long Justice was here, and that's how long he's been gone. I wasn't dreading this day. But it has been on my radar for quite some time. I'm not any more sad than usual. I'm just aware that from here on out, Justice will have been gone longer than he was here. It had to happen at some point. So much happened in his 20 months and 3 days here, and so much has happened in the 20 months and 3 days since he hasn't been here. Life continues whether we like it or not. We can choose to be angry for the time we didn't get to spend with him. We can choose to live in the past and dwell on the what-ifs and coulda-beens. Or we can choose to be thankful for time we did have and live in moment. We can choose to find joy in each day in spite of whatever the circumstances may be. Jake and I choose to be thankful. I don't know, maybe that choice is easy for us because for 6 weeks before he was born we didn't know if we would get to spend one day with him, much less an amazing 20 months and 3 days.